Hello, my darlings!
Wow, what a ride. I returned to my little fairytale 9 days ago, and it feels like everything has happened since then. Emerging from my healing cocoon in Bali where I integrated one hell of a trip back home that not only strengthened my relationship to self, but also healed my relationship with my parents, and thus, created a deeper level of security within myself I did not know was possible, and then BAM, abundance came pouring in SPADES.
One thing that I am so proud to have overcome these past 3 weeks is my self-sabotage. For years I have battled with getting my heart in the seat to write. My subconscious would do anything to stop me from doing the one thing that brings me the most joy. In a call with my mentor, I realized that my subconscious is trying to keep me safe and small. This book holds the key to my dreams of touching hearts with my words. The enormity of what it could bring me feels scary and unknown. So off I would go into my patterns of excuses and numbing out instead.
I am happy to say I am on day 22 of waking up at sunrise and getting my heart in the seat in a secret devotion to my deepest passion project, ‘The Barcelona Diaries’. That’s not to say I don’t have resistance. I squirm in that seat. Want to crawl out of my f*cking skin when I open up this 100K word document of all my trauma.
But on the other side of resistance is the version of Katie that will finish the book, get on the podcast, travel the world, sign the series, and all the big beautiful dreams f*ck yes, dreams I have for myself.
YOUR FUTURE SELF IS ON A COMPLETELY DIFFERENT FREQUENCY TO YOUR CURRENT SELF.
Therefore, it means you are going to have to stop playing small, stretch yourself, invest in yourself, and get outside of your comfort zone.
When it came to investing in my mentor, it didn’t make sense, my small self said ‘you don’t get to have this. Stay Here. We’re safe here.’ My mentor did her job by leading me to the decision that was for my highest timeline and vision. I was HOWLING crying on that discovery call, “I am so scared I will not live at my highest potential in this life. There is too much work to do.
Fast forward 5 months later and I’ve 2 successful launches. Went home and healed my lineage. Edited half a novel. Got my series in meetings with Hollywood producers and am sitting here after 3 full days of sessions BEAMING AT THE SEAMS
I BROKE THROUGH SELF-SABOTAGE. I stretched myself. I took one step toward the gods, and they took ten steps back toward me.
Here I am, seated in my writing chair, following three consecutive days of sessions with dream clients in a sold-out WOMENTORSHIP and METAMORPHOSIS. Women who've envisioned working with me for a year are now stepping into the space, while former clients return because they know this is the ALL-IN-ONE SPACE WHERE ALL OF YOU IS WELCOME HERE! The transformations have been extraordinary. I'm showing up differently, and so are they.
These women are quitting jobs, manifesting partners, and breaking decade-old habits; having more FUN, more JOY, and more PLEASURE. They’re setting healthy boundaries. They’re feeling their feelings. They’re connecting with future versions of self and we are creating aligned action steps that feel fun, exciting and DO-ABLE with me as your co-pilot holding you accountable
One client who was a full FUCK YES backed out of Metamorphosis for the second time one week before it began. Instead of making it something about me and my work, I invited her to tap into the self that wanted to keep her small. I sat in meditation, asking what she needed to hear, and allowed my consciousness to do the typing.
She wrote back to me the next day in shock. It was the exact kick up the butt her soul had been needing to step into this space and uplevel:
“Everything you said called me out in places I didn't realize were holding me back. Although I acknowledge and love myself for how far I've come, there's a part of me still holding my old self by my fingertips, I am overwhelmed that someone whom I cherish yet never met (you) could speak to the part of me that was keeping me in my safe, little, harmful space. Only you could call me out. Only you could know how to.”
So my darling members, I want to ask you on this POWERFUL AS F*CK Supermoon in Aquarius and Chinese New, how are you keeping yourself small?
Investing in yourself should feel a bit sticky; it should feel like a stretch; this is where the magic happens!
Your small self is trying to keep you safe because even the chaos feels safer than the unknown of the growth, abundance, wellness, wealth, freedom, and happiness that you have never experienced before.
As we journey through life, we are called to confront the shadows within ourselves—the fears, doubts, and insecurities that hold us back from shining our brightest light. By recognizing the patterns of self-sabotage and embracing tools for transformation, we can break free from these limitations and step into our true power and potential.
PLEASE REMEMBER you are worthy of all the love, joy, and abundance the universe has to offer. It's time to release the shackles of self-sabotage and claim your rightful place as the creator of your own destiny. You are capable, you are deserving, and you are enough. The world is waiting for you to step into your greatness—so GO GET IT!